TRANSLATION OF THE BOOK 'MARANAM-PARAMANANDATHINTE THAKKOL' WRITTEN BY ANAND UNNITHAN. TRANSLATED BY:KRISHNA(KRISHNANKUTTY NAIR).copyright@anand unnithan(author of the book)
REALIZATION - CROSSING OF OBSTACLES
The planes of Kurukshetra was there as the battle-field for restoration of Dharma. But Arjuna, who was supposed to lead the battle, stood inactive as if he was frozen, being bound by the Maya (illusion) of attachment. And he,( the soul) who came in the chariot of his body got up to fight only then when Krishna Paramatma (The Absolute, supreme soul) took the bridle of the horse, which was the mind, in his hands.
I have no better example to quote, in order to make the readers understand god-realization.
Since there will be a lot of obstacles waiting for the Sadhaka (Devotee of God), the Karmayogi (One who does actions without thinking about the result) and Bhakta (An intense believer in God.), God-realization, in a sense, is circumventing of obstacles.
It is not a visit alone. Yet I have come to return.
But before returning, I have to finish that work. Yes, that work which is the purpose of my birth.
The question as to why did I come here is as important as the question of my real identity, the question as to who I am.
It is the answer to that question also. I am the messenger as well as the purpose.
Let me try to explain it basing on individual experiences.
I was walking with my close friend Sinjo. The road was ascending gradually and we were near a turning of the road. All on a sudden, like an extra-sensory perception, some thoughts and spectacles forced into my mind. It was about a man sitting on a bike. There was a small child with him. The man had stopped the bike. But then he lost control of the bike due to weight and it was going to fall, fall ……
By this time, I had reached the turning.
The next moment, as I had visualized, there was a bike in front of me. And upon it was the man. And a child.
I was just walked ahead of him that I saw him losing the control of the bike and it was going to fall, just like I had visualized. And I turned and stopped the bike, catching it with my left hand.
I could do that because an unexplainable force had flown into me from somewhere.
While he was going to fall down, those who were coming from the front stopped, but could not do anything to help him and they kept their hands on their head in bafflement. Probably, I too could not have helped him if I have not had the vision a few moments ago. Because, then I could not have expected such a probability.
And when I was controlling the bike, the small girl child began to fall down and forgetting everything else, the man saved her from falling.
When every thing returned to normalcy, he looked at me and smiled.
But my entire attention was upon the beautiful little girl. And I recognized God in the innocent smile of the girl, who was not able to realize the seriousness of that which had happened a few moments ago.
Yes. It was my destiny.
On another day, I happened to see a wild cat. At once, I had a vision as below:
The cat is going to give birth to a child! And that too, at the left side the cupboard in my room. And on the following days, I arranged a labour room dumping old newspapers and old clothes on the left side of the cupboard in my room.
During a night after a few days, the pregnant cat entered my room through the open window and hid inside the heap of papers and clothes. And in order to save it from any inconvenience, I switched off the light and fan and gradually fell asleep.
At about 3.30, when I was awakened by the noises in the heap of clothes and papers, the shapes of the mother cat and its three children flashed into my mind like a vision.
In the morning, I told my father: “One is white and grey combined. Another is black. And the third one is of golden colour.”
Hearing me, my father laughed and said:”How can you be so sure that there are not four?”
I said: “I am sure. They are only three.”
Later they all realized the correctness of my statement.
I also understood that the life span of the black one is very short and that of the white one will be a little longer, whereas the golden coloured one is destined to live here for long.
It was me who took the golden one the first time in hand calling him affectionately “kunjaa, eda poochee” (Oh, you cat… You are kunjan.).
I called the black one “Karuppan” (Black one) and the grey one as Chara (Grey one).
And I called the mother cat as Aishu. She used to listen carefully, whatever I said. And also spoke to me a lot of things in her language. And we were able to understand each others language to some extent.
When the small cats began to walk, my father took them and left them outside the compound wall, as they had become a nuisance. And they edged away to somewhere.
During that night, after untying the dog, my father and I were taking supper. Suddenly, the vision of Kunjan, trying to jump down from the top of the wire fence to the front of the dog turned my mind upside-down.
I got up and ran out, without even washing my hand. And without understanding anything, my father accompanied me.
And as soon as I reached out that I saw Kunjan jumping down from the top of the fence to the front of the dog.
Pulling the dog away from biting him, I drew Kunjan to me and kept him close to my chest. And being panic-stricken, his nails penetrated my skin, paining me a lot and I saw blood oozing out. But In the divine pleasure of the moment, I forgot the pain and fear soon.
After some days, I saved him again from the attack of the dog.
During both times I was able to realize that it was my destiny.
Thereafter, he grew up as our beloved. My father and I became able to understand his talks (in cat’s language). By now, with all his obstinacy, he had become a member of our family.
And his arrival into our family was nothing except destiny.
And to enjoy his laughter and mischief and obstinacy was also predestined.
And the fact is that a meeting of the lives, which are destined to be together in each birth, will take place at the right time.
And he might have arrived to discharge some debt, which he owed to us in some previous birth.
Yes. It was the play of destiny.
But why is it all so? Why?
Gradually I began to understand. These were the momentary visions, which led to realization of the self.
The missions to let the sadhaka learn that his path is quite right. The angels who arrive in the darkness with lamps to help the travelers to recognize the right path.
The premonitory signs.
But at the extreme states of meditation, these things are simultaneously good and bad.
Because, the visualization of future enforces his faith. But all the visions need not be pleasant. And the unpleasant visions will haunt the sadhaka.
Once, my friend Mr. Rejinraj was making preparation to go to Sabarimala The famous Hindu Temple). And he wanted to borrow my bike for his journey. Immediately, I became aware of a small bike accident to him during the journey and advised him not to use bike for the journey. But for this, I did not tell him anything. And he went to Sabarimala on someone else’s bike.
During the night, while I was resting on my cot, I saw it as if in a movie!
The bike skidding and my friend jumping from it and saving himself.
Immediately I took the phone and called him, but it did not connect. Many times I tried, but when all the efforts were in vain, I became so nervous that I lost all peace of mind. And in that mental state, I could do nothing, but pray: “Oh, God, please. Let nothing like that happen.”
And my mind returned to peace and normalcy, only when my friend returned from Sabarimala. And I asked him:
“Did your bike skid at a bent en route making you jump down from it?”
My question flabbergasted him! It was almost a shock to him!
But there was another instance, which was fearsome.
When I met a close friend once, I experienced something peculiar in him.
He, who was always talkative, was quite soft and quiet on that day. Since I had never seen such quietude in him, it surprised me.
At the same time, I noted something like a shadow about him. To my utter distress, something became very clear revealing that the shadow is related to death. And it forced me to pray: “God, let my vision be untrue.”
But the news which reached me the next day was that my friend had died in an accident!
I did not want to believe it. Because, I had known that it was going to happen.
I was praying to God for my vision to be untrue, till I heard that it really happened.
And inadvertently, a question arose from my tongue. ”God, why was the knowledge about his death disclosed to me? I am afraid now. The inauspicious thoughts and visions which enter into my mind make me afraid.”
But I was recognizing one thing. Those things which have to happen, will surely happen. They could not be blocked.
However, such supernatural powers, which a devotee accomplishes through meditation or otherwise, are good and bad at the same time. And although I say it all in a lighter vain, these are incidents which may lead a sadhaka even to insanity.
On the other hand, such visions may make him feel above and different from normal human beings and it may make him swollen with pride.
It is also possible that he may think of himself as a great man with extra-ordinary power, while the others are just ordinary human beings. And he may be tempted to exhibit that power to others. And forgetting that the vision will be of things which will really happen later, he may desire deeply and try to create such experiences and when all his efforts will fail, his mind may become imbalanced, leading him gradually to lunacy. And in such a mental state, he may begin to claim of seeing and hearing many things, which in fact, may not even be there at all.
So in order to avoid danger while trying to realize God, the sadhaka has to keep every step with absolute care and diligence.
It was while I was studying in sixth or seventh standard that I began to take notice of it.
Tiny particles of glass moving everywhere!
In fact, they were not particles of glass, but were like the glare of sun on a lens.
But they were not the glare of sun too.
They were signs of different shapes as if created by someone with very small glassy granules and large glassy rods.
While I was studying in school, I made use of this vision for playing cricket. Actually, it was not cricket. If one player raise two fingers while the other three remain folded, he will get two runs. But if the other player too raise two fingers simultaneously, the first player will be treated as ‘out’. I began the experiment just for fun during our game.
To look at the sky. Then concentrating on the glassy grains, I will think seriously: “How many fingers the other player will be showing?” And my mind will reply. ‘Three’. To confirm it, I will again look at the glassy particles. And from the signs made by them in the sky, I will verify and confirm the correctness of ‘three’ as the answer. As I said above, this becomes possible, because at the first sight itself, the different types of particles will create an impression of being auspicious or inauspicious - having no specific reason - in mind. Using this method, when I began to win the games continuously, my friends made a condition:
“You may play. But you should not look at the sky.”
I was just a student at that time and had no knowledge about this phenomenon. And when I said this at home, they arranged to test my eyes but it revealed no problem.
Gradually I forgot that cricket and that technique. But later, when I entered into the realm of meditation (sitting or lying down with eyes closed without any specific order or rule, but leading the mind to peaceful enjoyment in my own way), and unknowingly entering into various experiments, the abovementioned signs began to reappear, not only at the sky, but wherever I looked.
Maybe, I had meditated during previous births. Otherwise, how could I, who had not even heard about meditation, could have perceived those peaceful moments just by blocking breath inside as well as outside?
From there onwards, the glassy particles became my aide memoire.
While I fall from the upper level of consciousness, they appear in front of me. Then I begin to search again for peace and tranquility.
Apart from this, if I am talking to a person, the signs which appear will be representing his thought process. And it enabled me to realize whether he had come to me with good intention or bad.
Actually these signs were experienced as positive and negative waves. And as far as a sadhaka is concerned, such experiences also may lead him to insanity, unless he understands them properly and clearly.
To a sadhaka, the biggest obstacle is his own thought processes. Often, he may be running after false conclusions which he gains from incorrect thoughts, like walking unsteadily in the darkness towards an abyss.
What he needs to do is to wait. For something divine to happen.
And when it happens, he has to understand it and accept it, without standing aloof. At the same time, he has to do away with the desire for its happening again.
While ascending to the higher levels of meditation, a sadhaka may see strange scenes and may hear odd noises. During some levels of meditation, I had the experience of moving very fast towards multi-coloured rays and bright globes.
But such experiences were repeated only rarely.
At some other occasions, it was to some white and quiet omnipresent brilliance where I used to reach.
And during some other times, my journey was through dark holes….
During all the moments of meditation, when I used to travel within myself, I used to realize the soul only at Ajnja chakra (One of the main centres of spiritual power in subtle body, between the eye-brows), without even knowing that it was Ajnja chakra.
Thereafter, by the grace of my spiritual teacher, who elevated my soul to the spiritual level of existence, i.e. from Moolaadhaara to Sahasradala (sahasrara) (The lowest centre of spiritual power and the highest centre of spiritual power), I was not surprised, because I believed in Divinity.
I recognized only much later that my expedition was through very dangerous experiments.
And I had not tried to find an experienced Guru (Teacher).
Because I knew that the Guru must have taken birth before the shishya (student) was born and one day or other the shishya will reach the Guru.
By the mercy of Guru, I understood that I had taken the right path.
And the presence of Guru itself made me recognize the higher levels of God-realization.
Maybe, I had recovered meditation from the memory of my previous birth. And then the philosophical and spiritual books and their summaries which I read during my pilgrimage to divinity reminded me that they are all lying dusty in my memory.
But those who do not possess the memory of previous birth(s), can neither understand these situations easily nor they can realize what is happening to them.
Yes. God-realization becomes the process of surmounting obstacles.
Only those who have already reached there can help them.
Yet, everyone has the right to engage in experiments, without anybody’s help.
But apart from the fact that such experiments may sometimes take much time to achieve the target, they are also dangerous.
Yes. While going towards the higher levels of God-realization, the obstacles to be faced will be taller.
And these obstacles may be anything. Physical, intellectual, doctrinal, spiritual, Godly or indecipherable. Anything.
But it is necessary to overcome them.
And that is possible too.
Because, I am the Universe in wholeness. I am endless. I am the perpetual chain of transformations. Yes. I am the personification of depiction of Knowledge Ultimate.
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REALIZATION - CROSSING OF OBSTACLES
The planes of Kurukshetra was there as the battle-field for restoration of Dharma. But Arjuna, who was supposed to lead the battle, stood inactive as if he was frozen, being bound by the Maya (illusion) of attachment. And he,( the soul) who came in the chariot of his body got up to fight only then when Krishna Paramatma (The Absolute, supreme soul) took the bridle of the horse, which was the mind, in his hands.
I have no better example to quote, in order to make the readers understand god-realization.
Since there will be a lot of obstacles waiting for the Sadhaka (Devotee of God), the Karmayogi (One who does actions without thinking about the result) and Bhakta (An intense believer in God.), God-realization, in a sense, is circumventing of obstacles.
It is not a visit alone. Yet I have come to return.
But before returning, I have to finish that work. Yes, that work which is the purpose of my birth.
The question as to why did I come here is as important as the question of my real identity, the question as to who I am.
It is the answer to that question also. I am the messenger as well as the purpose.
Let me try to explain it basing on individual experiences.
I was walking with my close friend Sinjo. The road was ascending gradually and we were near a turning of the road. All on a sudden, like an extra-sensory perception, some thoughts and spectacles forced into my mind. It was about a man sitting on a bike. There was a small child with him. The man had stopped the bike. But then he lost control of the bike due to weight and it was going to fall, fall ……
By this time, I had reached the turning.
The next moment, as I had visualized, there was a bike in front of me. And upon it was the man. And a child.
I was just walked ahead of him that I saw him losing the control of the bike and it was going to fall, just like I had visualized. And I turned and stopped the bike, catching it with my left hand.
I could do that because an unexplainable force had flown into me from somewhere.
While he was going to fall down, those who were coming from the front stopped, but could not do anything to help him and they kept their hands on their head in bafflement. Probably, I too could not have helped him if I have not had the vision a few moments ago. Because, then I could not have expected such a probability.
And when I was controlling the bike, the small girl child began to fall down and forgetting everything else, the man saved her from falling.
When every thing returned to normalcy, he looked at me and smiled.
But my entire attention was upon the beautiful little girl. And I recognized God in the innocent smile of the girl, who was not able to realize the seriousness of that which had happened a few moments ago.
Yes. It was my destiny.
On another day, I happened to see a wild cat. At once, I had a vision as below:
The cat is going to give birth to a child! And that too, at the left side the cupboard in my room. And on the following days, I arranged a labour room dumping old newspapers and old clothes on the left side of the cupboard in my room.
During a night after a few days, the pregnant cat entered my room through the open window and hid inside the heap of papers and clothes. And in order to save it from any inconvenience, I switched off the light and fan and gradually fell asleep.
At about 3.30, when I was awakened by the noises in the heap of clothes and papers, the shapes of the mother cat and its three children flashed into my mind like a vision.
In the morning, I told my father: “One is white and grey combined. Another is black. And the third one is of golden colour.”
Hearing me, my father laughed and said:”How can you be so sure that there are not four?”
I said: “I am sure. They are only three.”
Later they all realized the correctness of my statement.
I also understood that the life span of the black one is very short and that of the white one will be a little longer, whereas the golden coloured one is destined to live here for long.
It was me who took the golden one the first time in hand calling him affectionately “kunjaa, eda poochee” (Oh, you cat… You are kunjan.).
I called the black one “Karuppan” (Black one) and the grey one as Chara (Grey one).
And I called the mother cat as Aishu. She used to listen carefully, whatever I said. And also spoke to me a lot of things in her language. And we were able to understand each others language to some extent.
When the small cats began to walk, my father took them and left them outside the compound wall, as they had become a nuisance. And they edged away to somewhere.
During that night, after untying the dog, my father and I were taking supper. Suddenly, the vision of Kunjan, trying to jump down from the top of the wire fence to the front of the dog turned my mind upside-down.
I got up and ran out, without even washing my hand. And without understanding anything, my father accompanied me.
And as soon as I reached out that I saw Kunjan jumping down from the top of the fence to the front of the dog.
Pulling the dog away from biting him, I drew Kunjan to me and kept him close to my chest. And being panic-stricken, his nails penetrated my skin, paining me a lot and I saw blood oozing out. But In the divine pleasure of the moment, I forgot the pain and fear soon.
After some days, I saved him again from the attack of the dog.
During both times I was able to realize that it was my destiny.
Thereafter, he grew up as our beloved. My father and I became able to understand his talks (in cat’s language). By now, with all his obstinacy, he had become a member of our family.
And his arrival into our family was nothing except destiny.
And to enjoy his laughter and mischief and obstinacy was also predestined.
And the fact is that a meeting of the lives, which are destined to be together in each birth, will take place at the right time.
And he might have arrived to discharge some debt, which he owed to us in some previous birth.
Yes. It was the play of destiny.
But why is it all so? Why?
Gradually I began to understand. These were the momentary visions, which led to realization of the self.
The missions to let the sadhaka learn that his path is quite right. The angels who arrive in the darkness with lamps to help the travelers to recognize the right path.
The premonitory signs.
But at the extreme states of meditation, these things are simultaneously good and bad.
Because, the visualization of future enforces his faith. But all the visions need not be pleasant. And the unpleasant visions will haunt the sadhaka.
Once, my friend Mr. Rejinraj was making preparation to go to Sabarimala The famous Hindu Temple). And he wanted to borrow my bike for his journey. Immediately, I became aware of a small bike accident to him during the journey and advised him not to use bike for the journey. But for this, I did not tell him anything. And he went to Sabarimala on someone else’s bike.
During the night, while I was resting on my cot, I saw it as if in a movie!
The bike skidding and my friend jumping from it and saving himself.
Immediately I took the phone and called him, but it did not connect. Many times I tried, but when all the efforts were in vain, I became so nervous that I lost all peace of mind. And in that mental state, I could do nothing, but pray: “Oh, God, please. Let nothing like that happen.”
And my mind returned to peace and normalcy, only when my friend returned from Sabarimala. And I asked him:
“Did your bike skid at a bent en route making you jump down from it?”
My question flabbergasted him! It was almost a shock to him!
But there was another instance, which was fearsome.
When I met a close friend once, I experienced something peculiar in him.
He, who was always talkative, was quite soft and quiet on that day. Since I had never seen such quietude in him, it surprised me.
At the same time, I noted something like a shadow about him. To my utter distress, something became very clear revealing that the shadow is related to death. And it forced me to pray: “God, let my vision be untrue.”
But the news which reached me the next day was that my friend had died in an accident!
I did not want to believe it. Because, I had known that it was going to happen.
I was praying to God for my vision to be untrue, till I heard that it really happened.
And inadvertently, a question arose from my tongue. ”God, why was the knowledge about his death disclosed to me? I am afraid now. The inauspicious thoughts and visions which enter into my mind make me afraid.”
But I was recognizing one thing. Those things which have to happen, will surely happen. They could not be blocked.
However, such supernatural powers, which a devotee accomplishes through meditation or otherwise, are good and bad at the same time. And although I say it all in a lighter vain, these are incidents which may lead a sadhaka even to insanity.
On the other hand, such visions may make him feel above and different from normal human beings and it may make him swollen with pride.
It is also possible that he may think of himself as a great man with extra-ordinary power, while the others are just ordinary human beings. And he may be tempted to exhibit that power to others. And forgetting that the vision will be of things which will really happen later, he may desire deeply and try to create such experiences and when all his efforts will fail, his mind may become imbalanced, leading him gradually to lunacy. And in such a mental state, he may begin to claim of seeing and hearing many things, which in fact, may not even be there at all.
So in order to avoid danger while trying to realize God, the sadhaka has to keep every step with absolute care and diligence.
It was while I was studying in sixth or seventh standard that I began to take notice of it.
Tiny particles of glass moving everywhere!
In fact, they were not particles of glass, but were like the glare of sun on a lens.
But they were not the glare of sun too.
They were signs of different shapes as if created by someone with very small glassy granules and large glassy rods.
While I was studying in school, I made use of this vision for playing cricket. Actually, it was not cricket. If one player raise two fingers while the other three remain folded, he will get two runs. But if the other player too raise two fingers simultaneously, the first player will be treated as ‘out’. I began the experiment just for fun during our game.
To look at the sky. Then concentrating on the glassy grains, I will think seriously: “How many fingers the other player will be showing?” And my mind will reply. ‘Three’. To confirm it, I will again look at the glassy particles. And from the signs made by them in the sky, I will verify and confirm the correctness of ‘three’ as the answer. As I said above, this becomes possible, because at the first sight itself, the different types of particles will create an impression of being auspicious or inauspicious - having no specific reason - in mind. Using this method, when I began to win the games continuously, my friends made a condition:
“You may play. But you should not look at the sky.”
I was just a student at that time and had no knowledge about this phenomenon. And when I said this at home, they arranged to test my eyes but it revealed no problem.
Gradually I forgot that cricket and that technique. But later, when I entered into the realm of meditation (sitting or lying down with eyes closed without any specific order or rule, but leading the mind to peaceful enjoyment in my own way), and unknowingly entering into various experiments, the abovementioned signs began to reappear, not only at the sky, but wherever I looked.
Maybe, I had meditated during previous births. Otherwise, how could I, who had not even heard about meditation, could have perceived those peaceful moments just by blocking breath inside as well as outside?
From there onwards, the glassy particles became my aide memoire.
While I fall from the upper level of consciousness, they appear in front of me. Then I begin to search again for peace and tranquility.
Apart from this, if I am talking to a person, the signs which appear will be representing his thought process. And it enabled me to realize whether he had come to me with good intention or bad.
Actually these signs were experienced as positive and negative waves. And as far as a sadhaka is concerned, such experiences also may lead him to insanity, unless he understands them properly and clearly.
To a sadhaka, the biggest obstacle is his own thought processes. Often, he may be running after false conclusions which he gains from incorrect thoughts, like walking unsteadily in the darkness towards an abyss.
What he needs to do is to wait. For something divine to happen.
And when it happens, he has to understand it and accept it, without standing aloof. At the same time, he has to do away with the desire for its happening again.
While ascending to the higher levels of meditation, a sadhaka may see strange scenes and may hear odd noises. During some levels of meditation, I had the experience of moving very fast towards multi-coloured rays and bright globes.
But such experiences were repeated only rarely.
At some other occasions, it was to some white and quiet omnipresent brilliance where I used to reach.
And during some other times, my journey was through dark holes….
During all the moments of meditation, when I used to travel within myself, I used to realize the soul only at Ajnja chakra (One of the main centres of spiritual power in subtle body, between the eye-brows), without even knowing that it was Ajnja chakra.
Thereafter, by the grace of my spiritual teacher, who elevated my soul to the spiritual level of existence, i.e. from Moolaadhaara to Sahasradala (sahasrara) (The lowest centre of spiritual power and the highest centre of spiritual power), I was not surprised, because I believed in Divinity.
I recognized only much later that my expedition was through very dangerous experiments.
And I had not tried to find an experienced Guru (Teacher).
Because I knew that the Guru must have taken birth before the shishya (student) was born and one day or other the shishya will reach the Guru.
By the mercy of Guru, I understood that I had taken the right path.
And the presence of Guru itself made me recognize the higher levels of God-realization.
Maybe, I had recovered meditation from the memory of my previous birth. And then the philosophical and spiritual books and their summaries which I read during my pilgrimage to divinity reminded me that they are all lying dusty in my memory.
But those who do not possess the memory of previous birth(s), can neither understand these situations easily nor they can realize what is happening to them.
Yes. God-realization becomes the process of surmounting obstacles.
Only those who have already reached there can help them.
Yet, everyone has the right to engage in experiments, without anybody’s help.
But apart from the fact that such experiments may sometimes take much time to achieve the target, they are also dangerous.
Yes. While going towards the higher levels of God-realization, the obstacles to be faced will be taller.
And these obstacles may be anything. Physical, intellectual, doctrinal, spiritual, Godly or indecipherable. Anything.
But it is necessary to overcome them.
And that is possible too.
Because, I am the Universe in wholeness. I am endless. I am the perpetual chain of transformations. Yes. I am the personification of depiction of Knowledge Ultimate.
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